How long is this recovery process gonna take, anyway?
The past two nights, I have had anxiety dreams that I am a teacher again. In last night's, it was this school year and I was back at my old school for year three. Also, I had lost my left shoe and was walking around without it.
I also occasionally dream that I've forgotten to study for a midterm, despite being out of college for over a decade, so maybe I'm stuck with this forever.
I also wonder when I will stop being thankful, DAILY, for the following basic dignities of life:
* taking a long enough lunch hour to enjoy my food
* being able to poo when I need to instead of holding it until nutrition
No, these are not reasons I give when asked, at job interviews, why I don't want to be a K-12 teacher anymore. (Yes, I've had some job interviews. Yes, they are education jobs. Yes, there are education jobs other than K-12 classroom teacher. I will have one someday...but this may, like so many other things, take some time.)
The past two nights, I have had anxiety dreams that I am a teacher again. In last night's, it was this school year and I was back at my old school for year three. Also, I had lost my left shoe and was walking around without it.
I also occasionally dream that I've forgotten to study for a midterm, despite being out of college for over a decade, so maybe I'm stuck with this forever.
I also wonder when I will stop being thankful, DAILY, for the following basic dignities of life:
* taking a long enough lunch hour to enjoy my food
* being able to poo when I need to instead of holding it until nutrition
No, these are not reasons I give when asked, at job interviews, why I don't want to be a K-12 teacher anymore. (Yes, I've had some job interviews. Yes, they are education jobs. Yes, there are education jobs other than K-12 classroom teacher. I will have one someday...but this may, like so many other things, take some time.)
Labels: there is life after teaching, work
posted by jen at
10:32 AM
2 Comments:
I've stopped believing that there are jobs which afford the first of the two basic dignities you mention. And I'm bitter about it.
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Cana, At
8:22 PM
I suspect you may be stuck with the "Oh crap! I forgot to study for..." dreams forever. I get a variation on that, where I forget I'm taking a a class and don't remember until the day of the final. I've had this one so many times that I have to think pretty hard to figure out whether or not I actually did this at some point in the past. (Pretty sure I didn't...)
I'm so glad that things are working out well for you in the Bay area! It's very clear from your writing how much happier you are; exactly what you deserve!
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Betsy, At
1:10 PM
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